AntiquitySky

This just makes me feel depressed, lol.

noquitter asked: watched your video and the part where you say you're bi-sexual even thou us guys aren't really doing it for you. you said if anyone can help you out so i'd like to try :D well being bi-sexual from my uderstanding means being sexual attracted to both genders so that's clearly not you.
i am also like you still not really sure, thought i was one thing but idk anymore.
what i say i am is pansexual, inshort it means you're attracted to the person not the gender.
idk would that appeal to you?
it's awkward trying to explain yourself sexually, one the one hand you don't want to lable yourself or to say you're what people only know the sterotype is.
but the other you'd like to know for yourself just who you are.
sorry if i am not making sense lol

Thank you for your opinion and taking your time to watch my video and reply to me :).

I think what I’m doing is playing safe with myself. What I mean is, I spent so many years thinking I was straight, it scares me a little to think that I was completely wrong and that I’ll never be part of the majority consensus which is growing old and having a family with a man, like what I said in the video, I’m still in the mindframe where I should end with a man since that’s the norm.

It also could be because I’ve never really thought too much of my ‘label’, since it’s not a big deal to me. I’m just a girl who dates girls. So I’m still a bit confused in the sense of what to call it, since people apparently need labels in this world.

But then again, me calling myself a bisexual would be just as ironic and amusing as when girls who kiss other girls when they’re drunk call themselves a bisexual, lol. They’ll kiss a girl while intoxicated, but they’d never date a girl. I could kiss a guy while intoxicated, but wouldn’t want to ever date one.

I don’t think I’m pansexual, though.

And you make perfect sense. Having to label things is just confusing sometimes. Which is why I either say ‘lesbian’ since it’s easier to explain, or I don’t say a sexuality at all. If someone asks my sexuality, I just say, I only date girls. Which is the same as saying I’m a lesbian, I suppose. But that way I’m telling the truth without having to label it. However, thinking about it now, even by saying ‘I only date girls’ I’m labeling myself. So, I suppose we can’t really escape it.

Anyway, before I ramble on all night, I’d like to say thank you again for taking time out to mail me :).

It’s much appreciated!

xXx

Unlike a percentage of the LGBTQ community, I’m one of those lucky persons who has the support of their family and friends. We don’t talk about my sexuality, not because they don’t accept the fact, but because it’s such a small issue that there’s no need to mention it. I know, they know, and when I bring a girlfriend home for the first time, they’ll act no different than if she were my sister’s boyfriend.

I love the people who surround me.